PRIOR CHAPTER

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The Love Bomb

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An archetype existed at the “psychoid” level,

which was below that of individual collective unconsciousness,

where the organic and inorganic

meld and merge into psychoid matrices

which, if nudged by the right archetype,

would produce a reality-construct so astonishing

that it would appear like

- R.A. Wilson

Schrodinger’s Cat Trilogy

 

a spark to ignite

- Fallout Boy

My Songs Know What You Did In the Dark

an exploding man

- Hiro in Heroes

 “Fallout”; season 1, episode 11

 

Adam wept and wailed,

tearing out his hair,

Falling

- Weezer

Thank God for Girls

 

falling and falling and falling:

- Robert Anton Wilson

The Widow’s Son

 

Bombs away

- Sheppard

Geronimo

 

 How do you stop an exploding man?

- Hiro in Heroes

 “Fallout”; season 1, episode 11

 

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   Louis the Loon’s mind is a powder keg, primed and ready to blow. His fuse has been lit, and has reached its end.  He gasps involuntarily – an aspirated implosion rippling into stillness – as his body ceases its struggle.  We are pure mind, pure thought, pure spirit.  Such is the Universe from which we are, from which we were and from which we will always be, inseparable.  

 

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the love bomb is commonly used as a weapon,

a form of psychological manipulation

that is used to maintain power and control in a relationship.

Pimps and gang leaders use it to encourage loyalty and obedience.

Cult leaders have practiced it to coerce followers

- www.inc.com/justin-bariso/love-bombing-shows-a-twisted-form-of-emotional-intelligence-heres-how-to-protect-yourself.html

"Love bombing works because humans have a natural need

to feel good about who we are

- www.inc.com/justin-bariso/love-bombing-shows-a-twisted-form-of-emotional-intelligence-heres-how-to-protect-yourself.html

“Peace be with you!” the pope proclaimed.

And also with you!” the congregation responded.

Avila suddenly found himself

swallowed up by a sea

of well-wishers. He searched the parishioners eyes for any trace of

the cultlike fanaticism he had feared,

but all he saw was optimism,

goodwill,

and a sincere passion

- Dan Brown

Origin

the rediscovery of this infinite and eternal Wholeness

is men’s and women’s single greatest need and want. 

For not only is Atman the basic nature of all souls,

each soul or each subject knows or intuits that

his prior Nature is the infinite and the eternal,

All and Whole – he is possessed,

that is, with a true Atman intuition.

- Ken Wilbur

The Atman Project

 

This “true Self” is the Buddha-nature,

which is present in all sentient beings,

and realized by the awakened ones.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atman_Buddhism

 

“Atman” in early Buddhism 

may simply refer to the sense of “I am”,

similar to the pre-Buddhist Upanishads of Hinduism,

which link the feeling of “I am”

to a permanent “Self”.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atman_Buddhism

 

Ātmanattā or attan 

in Buddhism is the concept of self,

and is found in Buddhist literature's

discussion of the concept of non-self (Anatta).

Most Buddhist traditions and texts

reject the premise of a permanent, unchanging atman (self, soul). 

However, some Buddhist schools, sutras and tantras

present the notion of an atman (/ˈɑːtmən/)

or permanent "Self",

although mostly referring to an Absolute

and not to a personal self.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atman_(Buddhism)

 

Ātman and atta refer to a person's "true self",

a person's permanent self, absolute within,

the "thinker of thoughts, feeler of sensations"

separate from and beyond

the changing phenomenal world.  

The term Ātman is synonymous

with TumaAtuma and Attan 

in early Buddhist literature,

state Rhys David and William Stede,

all in the sense of "self, soul".

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atman_(Buddhism)

 

Etymology

Cognates (Sanskrit: आत्मन्) ātman, (Pāli) atta

Old English æthm, German Atem, and Greek atmo

derive from the Indo-European root *ēt-men (breath).

The word means "essence, breath, soul."

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atman_(Buddhism)

 

The words were breathed sounds

scarcely differentiated from one another,

but nevertheless vehicles.  Such as it was,

this ill-defined speech sufficed

for the great works of the beginning of all things.

- Marcel Griaule

Dieu d’Eau

 

etymology (n.)

late 14c., ethimolegia

“facts of the origin and development of a word,”

from Old French etimologieethimologie

(14c., Modern French etymologie), from Latin etymologia,

from Greek etymologia “analysis of a word to find its true origin,”

properly “study of the true sense (of a word),”

with -logia “study of, a speaking of” (see –logy)

 + etymon “true sense,” neuter of etymos “true, real, actual,”

related to eteos “true,” which perhaps is cognate 

with Sanskrit satyah, Gothic sunjis, Old English sod “true.”

- www.etymonline.com/?search=etymology

 

In very simple terms,

Sat means Truth and Nam means Name. 

You could translate it as True Name or Truth is my name.  

It is a way of acknowledging that at our essence is the Essence. 

The “Truth”, which is bigger than any human

truth, isn’t a matter of right or wrong

or even a concept that we can clearly articulate. 

It is simply an acknowledgement

that the Great Mystery is who

we are.

- https://blog.spiritvoyage.com/sat-nam-the-kundalini-mantra-of-awareness/

‘the Great God, the Secret of the Duat’.

Other texts refer to this motif as ‘the Secret Mound,

in which there is the interior of the great mystery’.

- Mark Lehner

The Complete Pyramids

The Duat was the region through

which the sun god Ra traveled

from west to east each night,

and it was where he battled Apophis,

who embodied the primordial chaos which

the sun had to defeat in order to rise each morning

and bring order back to the earth.

It was also the place where people's souls went after death for judgement,

though that was not the full extent of the afterlife.

Burial chambers formed

touching-points between

the mundane world and the Duat,

and the ꜣḫ (Egyptological pronunciation: "akh")

"the effectiveness of the dead",

could use tombs to travel

back and forth from the Duat.

Each night through the Duat

the sun god Ra traveled,

signifying revivification as the main goal of the dead. 

Ra traveled under the world upon his Atet barge

from west to east, and was transformed

from its aged Atum form

into Khepri, the new dawning sun.

The dead king, worshipped as a god, was also central to the mythology

surrounding the concept of Duat, often depicted as being

one with Ra. 

Along with the sun god the dead king had to travel through

the Kingdom of Osiris, the Duat,

using the special knowledge he was supposed to possess

which was recorded in the Coffin Texts,

that served as a guide to the hereafter

not just for the king but for all deceased.

- https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Duat

death (n.)

Old English dea "total cessation of life, act or fact of dying,

state of being dead; cause of death," in plural,

"ghosts," from Proto-Germanic *dauthuz 

(source also of Old Saxon doth, Old Frisian dath, Dutch dood,

Old High German tod, German Tod, Old Norse daui,

Danish dd, Swedish dd, Gothic dauus "death"),

from verbal stem *dau-, which is perhaps from PIE root *

dheu- (3) "to die" (see die (v.)).

With Proto-Germanic *-thuz suffix indicating "act, process, condition."

- https://www.etymonline.com/word/death

dhat
Essence

(Dhat). The Essence. This is Allah in Himself

without regard to His creations, His Attributes or His Names.

The Essence is beyond knowledge or conceptualization.

Allah warns us of this aspect of Himself.

The Essence is Absolute Blindness,

the Hidden of the Hidden, the Unknown of the Unknown.

This is the World of Absolute Non-manifestation.

- http://www.almirajsuficentre.org.au/qamus/app/single/299

the dhat, the essence,

which is so powerful that

it can transform whatever comes into contact with it.

It is the essence of man,

which partakes of what people call the divine.

It is “sunshine,”

capable of uplifting humanity to a next stage.

We can go much further than this.

- Idries Shah

The Sufis

Atum

Origin: Egyptian.  Sun god and Creator god.

- Michael Jordan

Encyclopedia of Gods

 

Atum’s cult centered on the city of Heliopolis

(Egyptian: Annu)

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atum

 

In the Book of the Dead,

which was still current in the Graeco-Roman period,

the sun god Atum is said to have ascended from chaos-waters

with the appearance of a snake,

the animal renewing itself every morning.

Atum is the god of pre-existence and post-existence.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atum

 

In the Heliopolitan creation myth,

Atum was considered to be the first god,

 having created himself, sitting on a mound (benben)

(or identified with the mound itself),

from the primordial waters (Nu).

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atum

 

Tatenen (also Ta-tenenTatjenen, Tathenen,

Tanen, Tenen, Tanenu, and Tanuu)

was the god of the primordial mound

in ancient Egyptian religion. 

His name means risen land or exalted earth,

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tatenen

 

Tatenen represented the Earth

and was born in the moment it rose from the watery chaos,

analogous to the primeval mound of the benben

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tatenen

 

The Benben Stone was believed to be the beacon

for the mythical Bennu Bird,

a phoenix-like bird with beautiful red and golden feathers

that sheltered in the Tree of Life, at Heliopolis.

- http://www.landofpyramids.org/ben-ben-stone.htm

the Bennu Bird, the divine bird of creation

and inspiration for the Greek Phoenix.

The Bennu Bird was closely associated with Atum, Ra, and Osiris.

It was present at the dawn of creation as an aspect of Atum (Ra)

which flew over the primordial waters and woke creation with its cry.

Afterwards, it determined what would and would not be included in creation.

It was associated with Osiris through the imagery of rebirth

as the bird was closely connected to the sun

which died each night and rose again the next morning.

- https://www.ancient.eu/article/885/egyptian-gods---the-complete-list/

The identification of the pyramid

with the sacred ben-ben stone in the temple of Heliopolis

is another sign that the pyramids were sun symbols.

To understand the ben-ben we must begin with Atum,

probably the earliest god worshipped at Heliopolis.

An aspect of the sun god, he is the ‘old’ sun of the evening

- Mark Lehner

The Complete Pyramids

the oldest creator god;

in his most primeval form he was the singularity

within the primeval waters of the Abyss.

The root, tm, in Atum’s name means ‘complete’, ‘finish’,

yet also ‘not-be’.

In later texts Atum is ‘Lord of Totality’, and ‘ the Completed One’,

and in the Pyramid Texts he is ‘self-developing’ or ‘self-evolving’.

Atum is a chthonic god

- virtually everything that exists is part of his ‘flesh’,

having evolved as his ‘million of kas’.

How did this evolution begin?

- Mark Lehner

The Complete Pyramids

For explanations of this psychological kind,

the result of actual experiences of a successive nature,

the dervishes were considered by orthodox theologians to be apostates,

discounting the literal interpretation of the Scriptures.

But the historical reality or the folklore version of Scriptural stories are of no interest

to the dervish. He has transcended the vehicle.

“To Adam, all names became known.”

- Idries Shah

The Sufis

Adam

masc. proper name, Biblical name of the first man, progenitor of the human race,

from Hebrew adam"man," literally "(the one formed from the) ground"

Hebrew adamah "ground"); compare Latin homo"man," 

humanus "human," humus "earth, ground, soil."

The name was also used to signify the evil inherent in human nature

(as a consequence of Adam's fall)

- www.etymonline.com/word/adam

Adamas

Primordial creator being.  Gnostic Christian (Nassene). 

Recognized locally in Phrygia [northwest Turkey]

as an androgynous force in the cosmos.

- Michael Jordan

Encyclopedia of Gods

 

Tammuz was later known in the eastern Mediterranean

by the Semitic term Adon, meaning ‘Lord’. 

The Greeks converted ‘Adon’ to a proper name, ‘Adonis’

during the first millennium  BC.

- Stephen Oppenheimer

Eden in the East

 

It is believed that there was also a goddess

Dumuzi from Kinunir near Lagas. 

The two became syncretized as the single male personality

who occupies a special place in the Sumerian pantheon

as the consort of the Goddess Inana. 

He is the first “dying-and-rising” god to be

historically recorded by name.

- Michael Jordan

Encyclopedia of Gods

 

The late nineteenth-century Scottish anthropologist 

Sir James George Frazer wrote extensively about Tammuz

in his monumental study of comparative religion The Golden Bough 

(the first edition of which was published in 1890) as well as in later works. 

Frazer claimed that Tammuz was just one example of the archetype

of a "dying-and-rising god" found throughout all cultures. 

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dumuzid#Dying-and-rising_god_archetype

Frazer's arguments were criticized as sloppy and amateurish from the beginning, 

but his claims became widely influential

in late nineteenth and early twentieth century scholarship of religion.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dumuzid#Dying-and-rising_god_archetype

Adherents of the school of philosophy founded by Kanada,

consider the atom to be indestructible, and hence eternal. 

They believed atoms to be minute objects

invisible to the naked eye

which came into being and vanish in an instant.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kanada

 

The death and resurrection of the young God

appeared in every ancient mythology

- Orit Kamir

Every Breath You Take: Stalking Narratives and the Law

 

In Greek mythology Dionysus, the son of Zeus 

was a horned child who was torn to pieces by Titans 

who lured him with toys, then boiled and ate him.

Zeus then destroyed the Titans by thunderbolt

as a result of their action against Dionysus

and from the ashes humans were formed.

However, Dionysus' grandmother Rhea 

managed to put some of his pieces back together

(principally from his heart that was spared)

and brought him back to life.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dying-and-rising_deity

The most striking parallel

between the mythic traditions of Osiris and Dionysus

is that they both share

a similar dismemberment and resurrection myth.

- www.artic.edu/~llivin/research/greeks_egyptian_gods/index.html

a scholar of religion, points out how a number of those

often defined as dying-and-rising-deities, such as

a number of figures in ancient Greek religion,

actually died as ordinary mortals,

only to become gods of various stature

after they were resurrected from the dead.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dying-and-rising_deity

 

I whisper in your ear

I want to fucking tear you apart  

- She Wants Revenge 

Tear You Apart

 

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     Fuck me. 

     Whispered words, to yourself, in your head.  

 

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it was the voice of Tanit

the invisible,

behind her trailing veils,

whispering of the love that is

more horrible than hate.  

- G. K. Chesterton 

The Everlasting Man

 

Another of these gods

whose supposed death and resurrection

struck such deep roots

into the faith and ritual of Western Asia is Attis.  

He was to Phrygia what Adonis was to Syria. 

Like Adonis, he appears to have been a god of vegetation,

and his death and resurrection were annually

mourned and rejoiced over at a festival in the spring. 

The legends and rites of the two gods were so much alike

that the ancients themselves sometimes identified them.

- Sir James George Frazer

The Golden Bough: Pt IV Adonis, Attis, Osiris

 

Attis is mourned for 3 days. 

Then, when Cybele brings him back to life,

there is a wild and joyful celebration.

- www.ancienthistory.about.com/cs/nemythology/a/cybeleattis.htm

 

Christianity embraced the story of the dying son-God:

the narrative of Mary and Jesus

clearly depicts the young God’s birth, death, resurrection,

and heavenly reunion

- Orit Kamir

Every Breath You Take: Stalking Narratives and the Law

 

In an even older tradition,

Nammu, the goddess of the primeval creative matter

and the mother-goddess portrayed as having

giving birth to the great gods,”

was the mother of Enki, and as

the watery creative force,

was said to preexist Ea-Enki.

Benito states “With Enki it is

an interesting change of gender symbolism,

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enki

 

This may be a reference to Enki’s hieros gamos

or sacred marriage

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enki


Heiros gamos or Heirogamy

(Greek "holy marriage")

refers to a sexual ritual that plays out

a marriage between a god and a goddess,

especially when enacted in a symbolic ritual

where human participants represent the deities. 

It is the harmonization of opposites.  

The notion of heiros gamos does not presuppose

actual performance in ritual,

but is also used in purely symbolic or mythological context,

notably in alchemy

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sacred_marriage

 

The traditional “La Bamba” is often played

during weddings in Veracruz,

where the bride and groom perform the accompanying dance. 

Today this wedding tradition is observed less often than in the past

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/La_Bamba_%28song%29

 

"The manifestation of the sacred

ontologically founds the world". 

According to this view,

all things need to imitate or conform to the sacred models

established by hierophanies, in order to have true reality:

things "acquire their reality, their identity,

only to the extent of their participation

in a transcendent reality".

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hierophany

According to the early scholar Samuel Noah Kramer,

towards the end of the third millennium BC,

kings of Uruk may have established their legitimacy

by taking on the role of Dumuzid as part of a "sacred marriage" ceremony.

This ritual lasted for one night on the tenth day of the Akitu,

the Sumerian new year festival, which was celebrated annually

at the spring equinox.  As part of the ritual, it was thought that

the king would engage in ritualized sexual intercourse

with the high priestess of Inanna, who took on the role of the goddess.

In the late twentieth century, the historicity of the sacred marriage ritual

was treated by scholars as more-or-less an established fact,

 but, in the early 2000s, largely due to the writings of Pirjo Lapinkivi,

many scholars began to reject the notion of an actual sex ritual,

instead seeing "sacred marriage" as a symbolic rather than a physical union.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dumuzid

The union is realized by the practitioner

as a mystical experience within one's own body.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sacred_marriage

 

a bit of a mind-fuck.

- I fucking love science

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releasing volatile essences from their prison in matter

- azothalchemy.org/azoth_ritual.htm

 

It is suggested that there are two parts to the Tiamat mythos,

the first in which Tiamat is 'creatrix',

through a "Sacred marriage" between salt and fresh water,

peacefully creating the cosmos through successive generations. 

In the second "Chaoskampf" Tiamat is considered the monstrous

embodiment of primordial chaos.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tiamat

 

This mingling of waters was known in Sumerian as Nammu,

and was identified as the mother of Enki.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Enki

 

It is thought that female deities are older 

than male ones in Mesopotamia

and Tiamat may have begun

as part of the cult of Nammu,

a female principle of a watery creative force,

with equally strong connections to the underworld,

which predates the appearance of Ea-Enki.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tiamat

 

Nammu is identified in various texts

as the goddess of the watery deeps. 

As the consort of An she is the mother of Enki

and the power of the riverbed to produce water.

Alternatively Nammu is the progenitrix of An and Ki,

the archetypal deities of heaven and earth

- Michael Jordan

Encyclopedia of Gods

 

To this goddess was born a boy child,

who was known as the "Young God". 

He grew to maturity and became the consort of the goddess,

and was then known as the "Old God". 

In time he would die,

leaving the goddess to bear a child

who would become the Young God once more.

- Alan Butler & Stephen Dafoe

The Knights Templar Revealed

 

Norwegian yngling, Swedish yngling (“youngster”);

from Old Norse ungr (“young”) + -lingr

(diminutive suffix, compare -ling),

also a surname in Old Norse

- en.wiktionary.org/wiki/Yngling

 

A member of the royal family of Sweden and Norway,

claiming descent from Ing, the Germanic god of Fertility.

- dictionary.reference.com/browse/yngling

 

Inca (n.)

1590s, from Spanish Inga (1520s), from Quechea Inca,

literally “lord, king.”  Technically, only of the high Inca,

but it was widely used for “man of royal blood.”

- www.etymonline.com/?search=Inca

 

nkosi

SOUTH AFRICAN

a term of address to a superior; master, chief

Etymology: Nguni inkosi chief, lord

- www.wordreference.com/definition/nkosi

 

According to early tradition,

Ndongo was founded from the Kongo kingdom,

probably in the late 15th or early 16th century. 

Ndongo’s kings bore the title ngola,

which later gave its name to the Portuguese colony of Angola.

- www.britannica.com/EBchecked/topic/407363/Ndongo#ref139214

 

An Ingui is also listed in the Anglo-Saxon royal house of Bernicia

and was probably seen as the progenitor of all Anglian kings. 

Since the Ingaevones form the bulk

of the Anglo-Saxon settlement in Britain,

they were speculated by Noah Webster

to have given England its name,

and Grigsby remarks that on the continent

“they formed part of the confederacy known as the ‘friends of Ing’

and in the new lands they migrated to in the 5th and 6th centuries.

In time they would name these lands Angle-land, 

and it is tempting to speculate

that the word Angle was derived from,

or thought of as a pun on,

the name of Ing.”

- www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ingaevones

 

Yig, like Ing and Ygg, means  ‘young’

coming from the Eurasian root *Yeug or *Jeug,

which has also given us Tibetan Nge Jung

meaning ‘to be born again’,

and the Chinese character Yong

meaning ‘everlasting’, ‘perpetual’, and ‘forever’.

- Carl J. Becker

A Modern Theory of Language

 

ankh (n.)

tau cross with an oval loop at the top,

Egyptian symbol of life,

1873, from Egyptian ankh, literally "life, soul."

www.etymonline.com/word/ankh

In Irish mythology, Oengus (Old Irish), Aengus (Middle Irish), or

Aengus or Aonghus (Modern Irish), is a member of the Tuatha De Danaan

and probably a god of love, youth, and poetic inspiration. 

He is also called Aengus Og (“Aengus the young”),

Mac ind Og (“son of the young”), Mac Og (“young son”) or Maccan.

- www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aengus

 

It was from the artists and poets

that the pertinent answers came,

and I know that panic would have broken loose

had they been able to compare notes. 

- H.P. Lovecraft 

The Call of Cthulhu


He could feel it in his soul. 

Even in his anguish,

the unity of the moment was intoxicating. 

- Dan Brown

Angels & Demons

 

Octopus sex is a bit of a mind-fuck.

- I fucking love science

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     Half-asleep, Louis mumbled as he kicked the sheets off his body.

     "Fuggmeh."

     "You're awake?  Good.  Your fever broke in your sleep, about an hour ago.  There's water in the cup on the table next to you.  You should drink some of it."

     Louis slowly realized he knew the female voice that was speaking to him.  Still in a haze, he flipped in bed to face her.  Phoenix's coquetish eyes smiled down at him.  She turned away as she spoke.

     "I'll get your clothes."

     Louis grabbed the cot's cotton sheet and wrapped it around his waist as he stood.  His head swam, his peripheral vision darkened and shrank.  Louis sat back down on the cot and rested his forehead in the palm of his hand, groaning.  His tongue was slow to awake.

     "Whad jusd happennd?"

     "You were very sick.  For a while, I wasn’t sure you were going to make it."

     “Ma head iz zdill zduck inna fog.”

     Louis strained to pull himself out of his stupor.  Her back turned to him, Phoenix bent over to pick up Louis’ clothes from where they lay atop a trunk.  His whisper was almost inaudible.  

     "Fuck me." 

     She growled softly, almost purring, in reply.  Her teeth grabbed at his earlobe. Her words were warm and wet, inviting.   

     "That's the plan."  

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Be careful making wishes in the dark dark

Can't be sure when they've hit their mark, mark

And besides in the mean, mean time

I'm just dreaming of tearing you apart

- Fallout Boy

My Song Know What You Did in the Dark

 

I'm going to fucking tear you apart.

- She Wants Revenge

Tear You Apart

 

and Enki bound by an oath

to keep the plan secret.

- en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Atra-Hasis

 

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